February 11th -17th: Pain, Sex, Conversations, and Verizon

Feb 12th

Had a day of working on the blog, and tight legs…

Feb 13th

So, it’s cool to know how much I woke up feeling this morning! The sensations were out of this world! Except, I must say, I had an extremely high amount of tightness….

Took a huge nap 😴

Did a chit chat with Laura and John!

Feb 14th

Well, well well! I had some wild dreams last night! About standing, snowskating, and so many things! I gotta make a blog post about my injuries and procedures, cuz I feel like they deserve some attention.

Also, I want to “interview” my siblings, mom, and dad, and get their feedback on the earliest days of the injury.

Laying on my tum this morning was soooooo helpful! And my rash is healing, and my hips are loosening!

I also applied to Wandercraft! This thing looks wild! It’s an exoskeleton device that’s supposed to be used for retraining your gait! I’m gonna send the link to my therapists to see if they want to also try to get one for me!! That would be so cool!

I’m currently trying to get in the pool with Callie! And do some water therapy! I talked to Ashley about it, and she would do water therapy at her old job, so she’s got a ton of resources on it!!

So, I usually spasm when I’m talking or exhaling. I noticed this last night and actually spent a lot of time last night controlling my breathing, and I was able to keep my spasms under control soooo much better! Since I was also on my tum, I ended up getting such a good hip flexor stretch! My legs feel soooo good right now! Remember to breathe!

taking time to slow down, and realize the things that are really helping, makes such a huge difference. Like I said to Callie, I need to block out time to make sure that I’m doing the things that I want to do! Like block out time for a nap and on the tum, or to read, or to work on the blog! I just need to be consistent, mindful, and consistent!

So time to get up and get moving!

Well, therapy went really good today. It’s 9:40pm right now, and I realized I needed to write before I got to sleep. I’m pretty demotivated, at the moment. It’s hard, when my legs, back, abs, all tighten up, and kinda stop me from moving.

I try and I try to be able to get myself up off the couch, but leaning over and trying to get myself into position is really fucking hard when I’m tight. So, when I need to get up, it’s really a matter of timing my movements, my breaths, and some helping hands to make sure I can get my body into position.

When I was about to get on the chair, I was about to tense up and not be able to really do much at all.

Feb 15th

So, taking a few moments to gather my head, get focused, and really hone in on what I’m doing is where I am at. It’s incredibly powerful to take that time each morning to right ourselves, and keep the progress moving!

I know that the sleep I had last night helped me so much! I really was able to get some restorative stretching in! My legs feel incredible! They arent soooo tight like they usually are. Where I am right now is making sure I keep things moving!

Soooo don’t lolligag too much now! You already spent most of the morning chatting with John about ALLLL the different and wacky things you two like to talk about.

Take a breath, slow down,

you’re moving your legs.

youre moving your legs!

You ARE MOVING YOUR LEGS!!!

just keep it up and keep helping them!!!

Getting to the gym last night really whooped me out! The cardio I think is making some big changes in me!

So therapy today was really good! I was able to work on the NewStep and work on my quads! They really are trying and really firing! You can even see em! I know they aren’t much yet, and neither are my hamstrings, but they really are so much more than that.

I’m gonna spend some time doing some research on all the muscles of the legs. I REALLY need to stop putting it off!!!

Feb 16th

So when we meditate we are trying to recreate REM sleep. 🤔 I feel like that’s it…. That’s what we are trying to do…. Be not awake when we are awake…

Feb 17th

So, im laying on my back right now in bed, and I’m feeling very interesting. 🧐 I’m noticing that I have the chills, and I know that this is cuz of some discomfort I could be feeling by laying in this position. what’s weird is laying on my back on this bed has usually felt really good, so I think this is something else…. I think it’s a return in something! But I’m not sure what!

I’m thinking that this could be a return in some motor function, cuz I was doing some hip thrusts with Callie earlier, and I think that my butt is really getting a better sense of sensation!

I had mentioned how I really want to understand and better know where the exact muscles are that are spasming. Like, I understand that there is a reason for it! And I want to try and help myself out as best I can!

I figure if I can help my abs by trying stretch em out!

Pain, Sex, Talking, and Verizon – these were all topics I was able to somehow conjure up on the conversation that Callie and I had. It’s really interesting to see how my mind can wander in these different directions, and how I can still somehow get back to it all.

It’s a wild time, trying to move thru the day and realize that all of these things are connected in some way. I get rather caught up in conversations, because its fortunately something that I can still do remarkably well. It’s a good time too. I really like how clear my mind is, and how I am able to speak and listen so much differently these days.

I think everyone should try to take some time to give themselves moments to really listen. I like to do that, and I like how it can affect how we can speak ourselves. Now, hopefully I am going to get some okay rest tonite, I gotta stay focused on my tum time at night, it really helps!!